The Fourth Wiseman-- a fine faithfilled movie

Many of us are familiar with the three wisemen who visited the Christ Child but how about the fourth one? Okay, so there really wasn't a fourth wiseman. Still good fiction though.

The film tells the tale off Artaban, the determined Magi who after careful study believes that an unusual star will direct him to the birthplace of the Messiah who is soon to be born. He sells all that he owns for three very precious gems (foreshadows a certain parable doesn't it) that he will offer as gifts to the newborn king. Artaban is joined by his father's slave Orantes, who has been told by his master that he will be set free after returning his master's son home.

Unfortunately, the journey lasts longer than either Artaban or Orantes ever imagined. For they just barely miss Jesus in Bethlehem and are told that He and His family have gone on to Egypt to escape King Herod. So they search the great palaces of Egypt for years, for surely this great king would be in estates such as these. However, as one Jewish man who has studied the prophecies himself tells Artaban that the Messiah will be found in Israel. Also, this scholar proposes something strange to this Magi. Instead of searching among the royal and noble people, to instead try looking among the poor and lowly of society for He is to tend to their needs. Such a suggestion puzzles Artaban, for why would the Messiah surround Himself with such people, people that are to be avoided?

Orantes anxious to receive his freedom, keeps urging Artaban to leave this wild goose-chase and head back home, yet Artaban still persists. What is it that is has him so determined to find this Messiah? Like so many throughout history and even people today, Artaban has suffered loss. He had lost his dear wife and children in a fire and then to cope with his grief buried himself in his work. None of it fulfilled him though, so he believes that if he meets the foretold Messiah and serves Him that he will find purpose in his life. So Artaban is on the great quest to discover the meaning of life itself.

Along the way though he keeps meeting people that need his help, which side track him further and in helping them he must sacrifice not only his time but his gifts to the King. After thirty-three years of searching Artaban is close to death's door, as is the King that he is so desperately trying to reach. However on Easter Sunday, Artaban's dream comes true before his death and a profound lesson is learned about what the greatest gift of all to the King really was.

Getting the Record Straight About Who God is and What He Desires

A while back one of my friends brought up the topic of God. She admitted that she was having difficulty understanding Him as well as the concept of sin. My college roommate Gertrude and I discussed this with her but I felt that I hadn't given her adequate responses, especially since I am introverted and better explain myself in writing. The following is the email that I sent her.

I wanted to add some further things for you to think about from our conversation earlier about God. These things can certainly be confusing, yet you brought up interesting thoughts.

Let's get the records straight, God is not a cold, power-hungry, sadistic, and hateful God that wants to make us all miserable. Pope Benedict the sixteenth wrote an encyclical (a special letter that the pope writes to the whole world,) called "God is Love." Everything that He does for us is done out of love. The laws that He has given us are really for our own benefit. He is all-knowing, so He sees everything that can harm us physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Remember that we call Him "Our Father" like in the prayer that Jesus gave us. If someone were to add up all of the love that every father from the first father to the last one that exists it would all fail in comparison to the love that Our Heavenly Father has for us.

God had no need to create us and to give us the world that we live in, but He did. He didn't have to give us mercy, prophets, or even a promise of a savior (Jesus,) but He did. He didn't have to agree to His only begotten Son's horrific death so that we could have the ability to be with Him for all eternity in heaven, but He did. He doesn't have to give us unconditional love, but He does.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him might not perish but might have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through him" (John 3:16-17).

He didn't come to declare that we are going to hell, but to call us to change. Just like what Gertrude said about the story of the woman caught in adultery, we are not to judge but notice what Our Lord also said. Once the people that wanted to put her to death had left, He said to the woman, "Go, [and] from now on do not sin any more" (John 8:11). He didn't tell her to go and continue to live the same destructive lifestyle that she had been living, but lovingly called her to turn away from her sin. He tells us the same now and always, for as I quoted from the bible earlier, that He came so that we might be saved through Him, instead of continuing to live in the darkness of sin apart from the light (John 3:17-21).

We are given two options in this life, to love and serve God or to not love and serve God. If we chose to love and serve Him then we must keep His commands, not out of fear, slavery, or obligation but out of love for Him. Why do we do this? Why is it that we must love Him by obeying Him? Because when you love someone, it's not enough to just say that you love them: you need to show it, so that they know that you really do care. Just talking is cheap, but our actions convey that we mean what we say. Jesus Himself said, "As the Father has loved me, so I also love you. Remain in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and remain in his love...You are my friends if you do what I command you" (John 15: 9-10, 14).

He doesn't force us, guilt trip us, or pressure us into doing anything. He certainly does want us to choose to love and serve Him, but He gives us the gift of freewill, which proves His love for us. For if He were to make us love and serve Him, then we would not love Him, but would be His slaves. He even loves us enough to allow us to go to hell. (Doesn't that sound ironic? But it's true.) It hurts Him very much (and that's putting it very lightly,) when we choose to reject Him, for no one loves us more than Him.

Grant it we don't always understand why He allows certain things to happen, but He is so far above us in knowledge and wisdom that even the greatest scholar could be. Essentially, the terrible and painful consequences of sin and suffering in general help us to grow as people, conquering ourselves, even drawing us closer to God during these times, for we come to completely depend on Him during the hard times (or at least we are meant to.) We are inclined to weakness and sin but with God we can do anything.

Venial sins are smaller sins committed that weaken our relationship with God, but mortal sins are much more serious than that that involve grave sins. Grave sins are things like murder, incest, rape, adultery, practicing homosexuality, slander, libel, and intentionally skipping mass when we are capable of making it, etc. These are very grave sins, but in and of themselves are not mortal sins. In order for a sin to be mortal it must not only be a grave sin, but also be done with full knowledge of the sinfulness of these grave sins, and also be done under one's own free will. When a Catholic has in fact committed a grave sin then they must not receive Our Lord in communion until they have gone to confession, for consuming Our Lord with such a great stain on one's soul is described as "murdering the Lord."

Jesus wants us to turn away from our sin and to be reconciled to Him, notice how I say reconciled to Him. When we sin we hurt Our Lord and through the gift of confession we are reconciled in our relationship to Him. It's just like in a song that I've heard at Mass before. "Come back to me with all your heart. Don't let fear keep us apart. ...Long have I waited for your coming home to me and living deeply our new life." Our Lord is merciful and forgives us when we are sorry for the hurt that we have caused Him and is always awaiting for our return to Him.

God bless.

Is Safe Sex Actually Safe?

The following is a paper that I submitted for an English composition class that I took last year that addresses a very controversial topic that needs to be addressed.

We all want safety, even in the bedroom. The thought of a sexually transmitted disease or out of wedlock pregnancy horrifies us. We seek to protect ourselves, our friends, and our families, particularly our children. What is our solution—Condoms and any other form of birth control. Before we begin handing out latex though, do we know all the facts? Is it effective? Are there any side affects that we should be aware of? How does safe sex affect our lives and our relationships? Is it good, bad, or neutral? The only thing that contraceptives protect us from is receiving the authentic love that we all desire.

Is safe sex effective? In the first year of taking birth control one out of six teenage girls will conceive (Evert, Jason 32). Planned Parenthood even admits that most high school pregnancies occur not because of the failure to use contraceptives but the failure of the contraceptives themselves (32). In regards to contracting disease, the pill weakens a woman’s immune system, which makes her more likely to become infected with sexually transmitted diseases (32). Scientists confess that they do not have enough evidence that condoms protect males from six out of eight of the most common diseases and not enough evidence that they protect females from seven of the eight most common diseases (Evert, Crystalina and Jason). Also, usage of the pill is linked to fatal blood clots, liver cancer, breast cancer, and cervical cancer (Evert, Jason 32). In reality:

The more sexual partners a woman has, the more likely she is to get
cervical cancer. This is caused by the most commonly transmitted STD,
human papilomavirus (HPV). However, condoms offer minimal protection
from the virus because it is spread from mid-thigh to mid-abdomen
contact. Any skin-to-skin sexual contact in that region, including hand-to-
genital contact can transmit it. …The Journal of the American Medical
Association reported that, currently, forty percent of sexually active
teenage girls are infected with HPV. (Evert, Crystalina 34)

Why should we trust condoms when they do not protect against the most common sexually transmitted disease and ironically make us more vulnerable to it?

Are the patch (Ortho Evra) and the shot (Depo-Provera) any better than condoms and the pill? Actually, the risks are similar and even worse (Evert, Jason 32). The makers of the patch face lawsuits relating to deaths and other injuries from at least 1000 women (32). In the mean time, women sue the makers of the shot for $700 million (32). One reason for the lawsuits is because the shot thins out a woman’s bones, which is very dangerous (32). Imagine the bones of a fifty to sixty-year-old in a twenty year old girl (32). Because of the shot’s link to breast cancer, veterinarians no longer prescribe Deprovera to dogs (33). Ironically though, we still give it to women. They receive the same shot given to male sex offenders to kill their sex drive (33).

Spouses and children of the infected are at high risk too. Most STDs are carried into marriage undetected. If a husband is infected with HPV, his wife is five times as likely to contract cervical cancer (Evert, Jason 31). “Several STDs are incurable, and many can be passed on from a mother to her baby. This can cause brain damage, blindness, deafness, pneumonia, liver disease, and even death to a newborn” (31-32). Is it worth it to put spouses and children in such danger?

After reading such information one wonders, “If safe sex is so harmful then why is it so widely promoted?” During a recording of the National Institute of Health’s question and answer in regards to contraceptives, doctors are asked why we do not tell teenagers that safe sex does not protect against the most common STD. One doctor responds that if we tell teenagers this then they will discard what little protection that the pill offers them but still continue sexual activity because they have no self-control (Evert, Crystalina and Jason). What a great insult! Young people cannot control themselves, but are wild animals that are dictated by their own desires despite the possible consequences (Evert, Crystalina and Jason). They are not even given the option of abstinence. The youth are sold into slavery. One young woman describes her own less than satisfying life on the pill that Planned Parenthood never tells women:

Here I am, sixteen years old and perfectly healthy but taking drugs to
make me sexually available. The drugs made me nauseous, moody,
depressed, and bloated. I remember asking myself again and again, “Why
am I doing this?” I knew it wasn’t for me, but I still had no answer. There
was just confusion and darkness. My boyfriend wasn’t much help, saying,
“Oh, just try it a little longer. It’ll be okay.” In other words, “I don’t care
if you hurt your body. If I can have sex without responsibility, life is great.
(Evert, Crystalina 36)

Why should we promote a lifestyle that entraps one with physical pain and encourages no responsibility at the cost of others and even oneself?

Contraceptive companies give us the false message that the only consequences to premarital sex are conceiving a child out of wedlock or contracting a disease. They never tell people about the other consequences: the feeling of being used and then discarded like a piece of gum, the regret, the guilt, the loss of respect for oneself and one’s partner, and the never ending desire for peace and confidence that never come (Evert, Crystalina and Jason). The world constantly assures us that sex equals love but then we see sex destroying love in the relationships of those we know and even in our own relationships (Evert, Jason 1-2). This destructive lifestyle hurts and confuses people, yet many feel trapped and know of no other way to find or even express love (2-3).

The human body is beautiful, sacred, and meant to be cherished (Whitman 665). Contraceptives, however, beg to differ. They instruct us to hate our bodies by fighting against its fertility (Evert, Crystalina 35). We take pills when we are sick, therefore pregnancy is now regarded as an illness instead of something to be treasured (36). Motherhood is apart of every woman just as fatherhood is apart of every man. Children are gifts not burdens.

Contraceptives, also teach us to disrespect our bodies by devaluing them. Giving ourselves for free implies that we are not worth anything, not even worth waiting to see (Evert, Jason 24). We try to convince ourselves that what we are doing is no big deal. One must ask, “No big deal? Our bodies are no big deal? We put so small a price on it or none at all” (Evert, Crystalina 31, 14)? We do not experiment with something priceless but with something cheap and replaceable (Evert, Jason 13). When we experiment with the gift of our bodies we slowly start to value them less and less (13).

Sex outside of marriage is lying with our bodies. In the act of intercourse the body says, “I give myself entirely to you. There’s nothing of me that I’m not giving to you” (10). An unmarried couple therefore, makes false promises to each other. “They’re saying, ‘I give you my body, but I won’t give you myself.” Or, ‘I’m totally yours until I’m totally someone else’s’ ” (10). Obviously, such an intimacy is designed specifically for couples who are committed to each other in marriage.

Often, sex is used to cover up problems (6). As one gynecologist describes, teenagers try to make it “work” so as to provide what they truly desire: acceptance, trust, love, relief from loneliness, and appreciation of their masculinity or femininity (6). When the sex does not work they, “turn their anger and hurt inward, resulting in depression…. We repeatedly return to certain behaviors such as sex, drugs, or drinking to get something that continually eludes us” (6-7). Research finds that even girls who only experience premarital sex once are three times as likely to be diagnosed with depression as chaste girls (“Why is premarital sex bad?”). The American Journal of Preventive Medicine warns doctors of this and recommends that if they encounter a young girl who is sexually active to screen her for depression (“Why is premarital sex bad?”). Research also finds that sexually active teenage girls are six times more likely to attempt suicide than virgins (“Why is premarital sex bad?”).

By promoting contraceptives to anyone we are destroying marriages before they even start (Evert, Crystalina and Jason). Often, sex causes people to marry the wrong person. During the act, one’s brain releases a hormone called oxytocin which causes a strong emotional bond, increases trust, and makes one less critical of one’s partner (Evert, Jason 8). The hormone influences a person to focus on the positive aspects and memories of the other person, and causes them to ignore the negative aspects (8). The circuits of the brain that are used to make judgments about the other person deactivate because of the intense bonding from oxytocin (8). The bond is even stronger in females and is probably why a girl stays in an unhealthy relationship despite the warnings of her loved ones (8). The blinding and binding is meant to help married couples through tough times but are clearly not meant for unmarried couples (8). Oxytocin is not the only reason for wrongly selecting a spouse. The lust causes a false sense of unity and their passion for each other impairs their ability to clearly look at each other (11). Usually, the lust covers up the absence of true love that never develops (11). Then after the wedding, they finally begin to evaluate the person that they married and realize their mistake.

Many claim that nothing is wrong with sex if the relationship leads to marriage, yet virgins have significantly lower divorce rates (10). If a man marries as a virgin, his divorce rate is sixty-three percent lower and for a woman who marries as a virgin, her divorce rate is seventy-six percent lower (10). Couples who refuse to cohabitate until marriage have a divorce rate nearly eighty percent lower than those who cohabitate before marriage (11). One reason for such findings, according to a journal entitled Adolescent and Family Health is, “Those who have premarital sex are more likely to have extramarital sex (affairs) –and extramarital sex contributes to many divorces (10-11).

Consider that patience, self-control, and sacrifice out of love for the other person are necessary qualities to a happy and lasting marriage (11, 2). Chaste couples practice the exact same principles (11). One can conclude that chastity prepares them for happy and lasting marriages (11). Purity liberates a couple from selfishly using each other as objects, which makes them capable of true love (2). Realize that, “purity never ruins loving relationships. If the relationship is based on lust, purity will end it. But if the relationship is based on love purity will save it” (Evert, Crystalina 17).

In the words of one woman, “when you put on chastity, you’ll discover a life more hope-filled, more vibrant, more real than anything you might have experienced while having sex outside of marriage” (Evert 24). The pure life is a joyful one full of peace. In chastity we find safety and reassurance but in contraceptives we ironically find the exact opposite. “Safe” sex in reality not only harms the body but the person as a whole. The only thing that contraceptives protect us from is achieving the authentic love that we all desire.

Works Cited

Eden, Dawn qtd. in Pure Love. Evert 24.

Evert, Crystalina and Jason. Romance Without Regret. DVD-ROM. San Diego:
Rosebud Productions, 2003.

Evert, Crystalina. Pure Womanhood. San Diego: Catholic Answers, 2007.

Evert, Jason. Pure Love. 5th ed. San Diego: Catholic Answers, 2007.

Whitman, Walt. “I Sing the Body Electric.” Reading and Writing from Literature. 3rd ed.
Ed. John E. Schwiebert. Boston: Houghton Mifflin Company, 2005. 665.

“Why is premarital sex bad? My friend just started high school and she’s trying to tell me
that it’s good and she’s going to do it.” Pure Love Club.com. 2007. Electric Pulp.
17 March 2008 .

After Happily Ever After

"...and they all lived happily ever after." Most of us are familiar with this conclusion to all faerie tales, but do we truly understand it? When we think happily ever after we tend to interpret the phrase as meaning that everything was perfect in the lives of the characters, particularly in regards to their marriages. The average person upholds this image as the model for their own marriages. The ideal, however understandable, is still an unrealistic expectation. Are these classic stories urging us to live our lives in illusions or are they implying something else? There is more to the married life than we realize.

What were the lives of the princes and princesses really like after the wedding and honeymoon? did they fight, say things that they later regretted to each other, have temptations of infidelity, get on each other's nerves, or possibly have troubles dealing with the in-laws and or children? The to these questions is that these couples faced most, if not all of these problems and even more...just like the couples of today. Everything was not perfect for them but despite difficulties they ended up having a happy marriage anyway. They had good times along with the bad, forgave each other, made up, and persevered.

Often, we view the wedding day as the end of the story. We usually observe this flawed mentality in many engaged couples. On one reality television show entitled, "Bridezilla," we encounter high-maintenance brides scrupulously plain for their special day, wanting everything to be absolutely perfect. Though an amusing series, if one takes a good look at it one sees that they spend a great deal of time planning for the wedding day but very little, if any, time on planning the marriage. Is the wedding not merely the first day of the marriage and the marriage itself will last for the rest of their lives? Imagine preparing for one day of fifty years. If we really think about it this is completely silly. Famous author G. K. Chesterton once wrote a letter to his wife describing how their wedding was creation day. To him, it was not an end but a beginning.

During an engagement period a couple needs to discern if they should go through with the wedding or not. Certain issues need to be discussed and thought over. One of my high school Spanish teachers told us the story of her brother's divorce. He was young and in love but some time after he got married he discovered that his wife did not want to have children, yet he did. This led to conflict and then they divorced. Had this been brought to his attention earlier, the wedding never would have taken place and obviously the divorce would not have either. Fortunately, most churches have marriage preparation programs set up so that a couple can evaluate their relationship and properly prepare for their marriage, but both of the engaged persons and the pastor for that matter must take this time very seriously. Unfortunately, some pastors marry off just about anyone these days, some not even giving any marriage preparation (which by the way is illegal in Catholicism.) What they often don't see are the benefits to such a program and how without sufficient preparation, that they may be setting up the couple for divorce or at least significant marital problems.

Stories are meant to teach us real life lessons and faerie tales are no different, but we sometimes get caught up in its fantasy world. No perfect marriages exist. According to G.K. Chesterton, he knew plenty of happy marriages but no "compatible" ones. As one can clearly see, there is more to the married life than we realize.

Pro-Life Messages Gaining Popularity in the Media

Sometimes, it's easy to see the negatives and to pay little if any attention to the positives. The pro-life movement still has a very long way to go until it is victorious but as they say, "the tides are turning."

Yep, you read that right. They are really are. Just look at what is going on in the media for over a year now.

1. Meet the Robinsons, is an endearing time travel film about an orphan boy named Louis who is distraught that no one ever wants to adopt him. He yearns to be loved by a family of his own and even seeks out his long lost mother who left him at the doorstep of the orphanage. Through his adventure through time, he learns the valuable lessons of hoping, learning from his failures, forgiveness, his own self- worth, that a wonderful future awaits him, and that he really is loved. By the end, we see the beauty of adoption as Louis finally comes home with his new family.

2. bella, involves a single waitress named Nina, who has to deal with an unexpected pregnancy. Fired from being late to work multiple times and in a state of almost total despair, she is befriended by a former co-worker of hers named Jose, who shares with her love and understanding, which she hasn't gotten from anyone else. Through Nina's relationship with him she eventually leaves the clinic and chooses to let her baby live and give her away in adoption.

3. The ever popular Juno, weaves the story of teenage girl who finds herself pregnant as well. After being told just before entering the abortion clinic that even in the early stages in the womb that her baby has fingernails, something that makes her realize that her baby is a human being. Then, she finds who she deems a worthy couple to give her child in adoption to. We even see a beautiful moment where Vanessa (the mother to be) feels her baby move in Juno's womb. Life is definitely inside of her. Unlike bella though we actually get to see the baby for ourselves and witness the joy of adoption with our own eyes.

4. Horton Hears a Who, retells the familiar tale of an elephant named Horton, who discovers life on the spec of a clover who will do anything protect the town that lives on it. A funny and heartfelt film that reaffirms that, "A person's a person no matter how small." Dr. Seuss would be proud.

5. The Secret Life of the American Teenager, is the relatively new television series about a fifteen year old girl named Amy who, yes you guessed it, has discovered her own unplanned pregnancy. She nearly has her child aborted as well but then takes responsibility for her actions and gives her unborn child life. Amy even gets the love and support she needs from her own family and learns an untold secret about her own mother's past that helps her to cope with her own situation.

I've heard that Plato said that if you want to change the culture, don't go into politics to change the laws but go into the arts to influence people to get those laws changed. There's definitely hope for the pro-life movement then.

Why do I blog?

"Ah blogging... So many written and updated throughout the entire world. If one ever commits to composing one's own, realistically few will even view it, let alone take any of it to heart if has any meaning to it. So what is some college kid who is typically behind with technological advances doing writing a blog about her Catholic faith? What does she have to tell us that we haven't already heard at the pulpit? Why should we take her seriously? Really what do kids know about orthodox faith? How much time do they even have?

Ahem. Young lady. Young lady. YOUNG LADY! Get up and answer!"

"Oh. Eh? Is it morning already?"

"Miss, we have our choice of scoping out other blogs. All of them in the whole world really and you're not replying to our hard thought questions. You're asleep even. "

"Sorry about that. Those questions were getting much too serious and profound. I'm no philosopher and thankfully I fell asleep before you said anything that would make my head hurt, or if you did I dozed off well before that. I may be knowledgeable about some aspects of the Catholic faith but I'm no St. Thomas Aquinas! This isn't a lecturing session, and though I want to teach people about my beliefs I don't want to bore them or make them think that this is for those pursuing their doctorate in theology.

You want to really know why I blog, then that's the only question you need to ask."

"Alrighty then, smart alec. Go on."

"Well, St. Paul had his letters and I have my blog, though his works are far more worth checking out than this silly thing on the net. I want to reach people, encourage them in their faith, possibly even open the door to conversion for some, and even for my own sake. No, not in a vain sort of way. I pray that that doesn't happen, but I mean that I want ME to grow spiritually from composing such work. Teachers do a great deal of learning themselves. I'm not expecting anything terribly big from writing this. I know that not everyone in the world is reading anything that I write and only a small number ever will most likely. I'm just doing what I can where I am right now using my God given gift of writing. We as Christians are all called to be missionaries and this one of the ways that I do it.

The media these days is at our very finger tips with so much room for the average person to evangelize. Just think about it; blogs, myspace, facebook (yes even that can be used for evangelization,) creating videos on youtube, posting comments on youtube, podcasting, and for those especially talented creating one's own website.

I'd like to have the blog going for years. I apologize for not updating as much as I probably should. We all have our schedules, especially in my case during the school year. College isn't so carefree and this summer I'm working a minimal of forty hours a week. I'll probably just do a once a month post on average.

I've written down a bunch of ideas for posts ranging from movie recommendations, satire, random musings, poetry, etc. Believe me that's just the start of the list. Just wait and see what I have in store for my viewers and if at any time I write or show a link to something that's contrary to the truth of the faith please do (charitably) let me know. "

Franciscan University Visit

During my spring break last March I went for an overnight campus visit to the very Catholic Franciscan University of Steubenville. Quite a long drive to Ohio but well worth the distance. Mom and I entered Steubenville late that night and wanted to see where the school was before checking into our hotel. Fortunately, we found it very quickly and were surprised at the sight of the campus.

A sign pointed upward. Neither of us expected it to be on top of a hill. I had expected a school at a common level, but being up away from the rest of the town was actually a plus instead of a minus. In this way you're totally in Franciscan and free from the distractions of the world, so you are Christ-centered.

What an impressive school! Imagine a Catholic university where each year the professors take an oath of fidelity to the Church. Prospective students, parents, and guardians can rest assure that they will only be instructed in the truth of the faith.

Daily is mass is offered four times a day and guess what? Students and faculty actually attend! It's celebrated reverently in a pretty chapel filled with people. By no means is this boring, for in the reverence one is surrounded by the beauty of the mystery of God. A little Latin is even sung, so we have a taste of the past.

Throughout my stay there I noticed how Eucharistic centered the campus was. In the multiple daily masses, the small chapels in each residence hall where adoration takes place, and in the Portiuncula. The Portiuncula is chapel built that was remodeled after a church that St. Francis of Assisi restored and the place of the founding of the friars and clothing of St. Clare as a nun. Such a beautiful place for Eucharistic adoration! Other places for prayer include the outdoor stations of the cross, the grotto built in honor of Our Lady, and a tomb of the unborn which is in sorrowful memory of five aborted babies.

I got to sit in on a theology and catechetics (religious education class) that I must say are very impressive. Franciscan is the perfect place to study such subjects. The pre-theology program is top notch and the catechetics major is the best in the country. My mom and I even got to take a tour of the set where the television show "Franciscan University Presents" is filmed for EWTN. Another interesting thing about the school is that one can join what are called households-- a group of peers that come together for prayer, socialization, etc. Each has its own charism whether it be Our Lady, a saint, etc. They become like a home away from home for an individual.

The pro-life movement is absolutely huge at this school and there is no doubt that it is Catholic. The only place more Catholic than Franciscan University of Steubenville is the Vatican. A very different environment than my current secular college to say the least. When you pray no one thinks you're weird or gives you strange looks. Heck, they may even join you. Not that Franciscan students are holier than thou. They act like ordinary people; hang out, have fun, get involved in non-religious activities on campus, watch movies, etc. They're not perfect little angels, but they certainly do put their faith first in their lives. You may even encounter a religious sister in a classroom or spot a Franciscan friar strolling around campus. If I do attend, I'll be in a safe environment filled with people with the same set of values as me. About 2,400 undergraduate students where the classes tend to be smaller, students get the personal attention needed and are not just one of hundreds in a room.

The school's motto is, "academically challenging, passionately Catholic." Believe me, it lives up to it. So if you're looking for a rock solid Catholic campus, Franciscan University of Steubenville is the place to be.

Boy With Clubfoot

For my English class I had to look at an older painting and then write about it. The title of it is "Boy With Clubfoot" and yes you guessed it, this is a picture of a boy with a clubfoot. After pondering what to write about for a little while it hit me to write a poem- a pro-life poem.


sweet, energetic, bright boy
...with a clubfoot
so much to give yet so little given to him
mother's abandonment at two
after multiple doctors told her that his condition was permanent,
uninvolved father
claiming that she should decide,
rejoicing her freedom from him,
sent to an old orphanage,
five years and no one has come to adopt him
because of his clubfoot,
saying that he isn't like other children
or he would be too difficult to take care of,
made fun of by the other children
mocking him by inviting the boy to play sports
knowing full well that he couldn't
no family
no friends
only given pity from those who work at the orphanage
to some a nuisance
a challenge
an inconvenience
to others just a clubfoot
not a person but a body part

Defying Gravity- Defying Society

Last summer I saw the awesome musical "Wicked" which is the story of the wicked witch of the west with a whole new creative twist. My favorite song from it is "Defying Gravity." Now whenever I listen to it or think about it I can't help but be reminded of living out the Catholic faith, for nothing is as radical as holiness. So I've tweaked the song a little bit for you. Instead of "Defying Gravity" it's "Defying Society." May this encourage you during times when you feel so weird or attacked for your beliefs. I know what it's like to have people think that you're crazy and narrowminded for fidelity to the Church.

Defying Society

Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing. Too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes, and take a leap of faith. It's time to try defying society. I think I'll try defying society and you can't pull me down...

I'm through with accepting limits because someone says they're so. Some things I cannot change but til I try I'll never know. Too long I've been afraid of losing love. I guess I lost. Well if that's love it comes at much too high a cost. I'd sooner buy defying society. Kiss me goodbye. I'm defying society and you can't pull me down...

So if you care to find me look to the western sky. As someone told me lately everyone deserves a chance to fly. But I won't be flying solo. Our Lord and I we'll be flying free and to those who ground me take a message back from me. Tell them how I am defying society. I'm flying high defying society and soon I'll match them in renown. And nobody in all the world, no culture that there is or was is ever gonna bring the Church down.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=btU7hXLOYHA

Crown of Thorns Reflection

One Halloween years ago I was getting my costume ready. I was going as St. Philomena and my mom was pinning the crown of flowers around my head. One of the hair clips jabbed my head accidentally and led out an "ow!" Then it reminded me of how Jesus was pierced by a whole crown of long and thick thorns. After the soldiers slammed it on His head they pounded it into his very skull so that it would stay on. I saw that my own pain was absolutely nothing compared to what He endured. No matter what we suffer, whether it be physical, emotional, mental, or spiritual, will never add up to what Jesus suffered. He loves us that much and wants us to seek Him in times of sorrow and joy as well. There is nothing that He has held back from us: His Body, His Life, His Time, His message, His love, and even lowered Himself- body, blood, soul, and divinity, down to the Eucharist in the form of bread and wine. So why do we struggle in giving ourselves totally to Him? (I ask this more to myself than anyone else.)

Regarding Lent

Today is Ash Wedesday, the first day of Lent. For those of you who don't know much about it or who don't understand it I'll explain what it entails.

For fourty days we prepare for Easter, just as Jesus was in the desert for fourty days in preparation for His ministry. During that time He fasted, prayed, and overcame temptation. The official Church teaching is that we are to abstain from meat accept for fish on Ash Wedesday and every friday throughout Lent. Why do we do this? In the time of Our Lord, whenever there was a celebration the fattened calf was slaughtered and eaten, but Lent is not a time of celebrating, Easter is. We await in hope for that glorious day. I also think of eating fish as a reminder of our call to discipleship and to spread the gospel to all people. Our Lord said to His disciples, "Come after me, and I will make you fishers of men" (Mk 1:17). The ashes on our foreheads serve as a reminder to us. For we are dust and to dust we shall return (Gen 3:19). This reminds us that our life on earth is a short one and that we are made for God in heaven, not earth.

In regards to fasting, those fourteen and above are required to do so only on Ash Wedesday and Good Friday. "On these days, we are permitted only one full meal and two small meals that together add up to one full meal and two small meals, and must abstain from eating meat. Days of abstinence (such as the Fridays of Lent) simply require the avoidance of meat on those days" (Pinto 168, 169). One is excused from fasting if it indangers one's health though. Many people also make other sacrifices such as giving up a particular food or drink that they like or secular music.

Why do we do these things?

"1. As a way to atone for sins of the past, both ours and others (Col 1:24).

2. To learn to master our inclinations towards sin (Jas 1:2-4).

3. To help us prepare for the spiritual feast of the resurrection of Jesus on Easter.

4. As a sign of our conversion.

5. As a way to purify our soul (CCC 2043)" (Pinto 168).

"Mastering the little changes in life prepares us for the big challenges (Heb 5:8, 1 Pt 4:12-13)" (Pinto 168).

I'd like to point out that the words Lent and love are interconnected. They both start with the letter "l" and have four letters. Some think that Lent is all about burdens, but actually, the only sacrifice that is burdensome is the one done apart from love. True love is not a feeling or an emotion, but action. True love is wishing the best for another, even to the point of sacrifice. The ultimate display of love was Jesus dying on the cross for us all. There was no other ration reason for Him doing it. Throughout Lent we offer our very selves up and unite our sufferings with His. We call it the paschal mystery, which means suffering and dying in order to gain new life, just like what Jesus did. We find this in the theme song to a television series entitled, "The Pure Life."

Was I born just to die? Was I given these gifts just to watch um' pass by and have I toiled in vain? There is joy in Him who leads us through pain. For all those who'll come to the Table to be sustained, there is joy, there is life here in my suffering.

Christ died for us and we are called to die a little for Him to show our love for Him. Don't focus on the cost but on the prize. "Do you not know that the runners in the stadium all run in the race, but to win a perishable crown, but we an imperishable one. Thus I do not run aimlessly; I do not fight as if I were shadowboxing. No I drive my body and train it, for fear that, after having preached to others, I myself should be disqualified" (1 Cor 9:24-27).

"I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship. Do not conform yourself to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect" (Rm 12:1-2).

Lent is a time to start anew. Perhaps instead of giving something up you could work on overcoming a particular sin or obtain a certain virtue. I urge you to go to confession during this season, especially if you have skipped mass, which is very serious (unless there was a valid reason such as illness, the weather wouldn't permit it, etc. I don't mean for this to sound judgmental. It's just that things are pretty lax these days and I want you to be brought up instead of down.) "Why should you go to confession? Why can't you just tell God you're sorry on your own?" www.catholic.com/thisrock/2001/0110sbs.asp

Think of every sacrifice you make as a gift to Jesus, an egg or treat in His Easter basket. If it is not done out of love though, the chocolate bunnies will taste terrible to Him. Why not possibly watch less tv or even give it up all together. I've heard it said that Blessed Mother Teresa refered to the tabernacle as her tv. Did you know that you can do Eucharistic Adoration online? www.savior.org Do you have questions about the Eucharist? "Isn't it just symbolic? Come on, it's just a piece of bread. Does receiving the Eucharist make us cannibals? Doesn't scripture disprove the doctrine? Wasn't it made up over time by the Church?" www.catholic.com/thisrock/2001/0103sbs.asp

Works Cited

The New American Bible. Ed. Hartman, Canada: World Bible Inc., 1987.

Pinto, Matthew J. Did Adam & Eve Have Belly Buttons? 2003. West Chester: Ascension Press,
1998.

Bella Movie Review

Over the summer I had heard about the upcoming release of a film entitled Bella. I was told that that it was a pro-life movie and that it had actually won the People's Choice Award at the Toronto Film Festival. Last August, producer and actor in the film, Eduardo Verastegui, made a guest appearance on popular EWTN show Life on the Rock discussing his conversion from being a mostly non-practicing Catholic to his journey home to Rome. He was a soap opera star in Mexico and was lost in the glitz of stardom, but through his mother's prayers and his English tutor's challenging words Eduardo discovered what was truly important. I yearned to see this movie but it was (and still is) released in a limited amount of theaters. Over Thanksgiving break my family and I went on vacation to Branson, MO. My mom surprised me by asking if I wanted to see Bella. I didn't know that she had even heard of the movie. Apparently it was playing in my hometown while I was away at college. Previously, I had prayed for the privilege of viewing the film and I knew that this was the answer to my prayer. So my mom and I drove to Springfield to see it and we are glad that we did. Nina, an unwed waitress, finds herself pregnant and her boyfriend is for aborting the child. To make matters worse she is fired from her job for her multiple tardies and her boss doesn't believe that she was truly sick one day. He thinks that she was actually hung over, but Nina was experiencing morning sickness. To promote life the writers could have gone in multiple directions with this. The film could have been preachy, judgmental, etc. Surprisingly enough, the movie doesn't do any of these things. We as an audience feel compassion for Nina, who had difficulty enough just living on her small salary at the restaurant. A chef named Jose from where she used to work, leaves the restaurant to come to her aid. He merely becomes her friend; listening to what she has to say, spends the day with her, and treats her to dinner with his family. Nina grows to trust Jose and through this friendship love their lives change. Both pro-choicers and pro-lifers will be challenged by this movie. Pro-choicers will ponder on their previous position and pro-lifers will consider how loving is the key to changing people. The main message is love in Bella. As the movie website says, it's a love story that goes beyond the romance between a man and woman. This theme of love can be applied to evangelizing. Everyone longs for it and is incomplete without it. Through loving we can reveal what being a follower of Christ is all about and the walls of defense around their hearts will collapse. As my mom put it, the movie is different in that it's for widescreen audiences. Bella isn't about any part of Christ's life or the life of a saint, so it draws attention and appeal to many faith backgrounds and views. Despite its common ground though, the Catholic faith isn't ignored. One seen involves Jose and his family praying before dinner and the film itself opens with the quote, "My grandmother told me that if you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans." (By the way if this is true I must be Robin Williams.) Most likely, Jose's displays of love are motivated by his faith. On another note Bella is a great film for Hispanics. Eduardo, who plays Jose commented on how Latinos are typically portrayed in films. The men are usually portrayed as criminals, thieves, drug dealers, and if they are handsome then they are Don Juan casanovas who are womanizing liars. "You never see a Latino as a hero- not a hero like Superman or Batman or any of those guys; a man of integrity, a man who sacrifices for his wife or children, a good citizen that serves his country." Eduardo and his fellow associates who made Bella, resolved to portray Hispanics in a much more positive light and kept their promise. Looking back at his past, Eduardo realized that back when he was a Mexican soap opera star, that he was feeding the negative stereotype in the media, and even became a womanizer himself. The man who was (and still is) regarded as Mexico's Brad Pitt, decided to turn his life around and has a profound new respect for women. He wanted to present women more favorably in this film as well, after all he said, he had a wonderful mother and three sisters. Bella is truly a magnificent treasure. You'll laugh, possibly cry, and be hungry for Puertorican/Mexican food afterwards. This is now one of my favorite movies of all time. I'm considering it for the number one spot on my list. At the moment, it's showing in a limited amount of theaters, but the requests for the movie keep coming in. To find out where it's being shown go to http://bellathemoviesite.com/.